God, what have I done?! I’ve allowed my mind to be the bullet and my heart to be the gun. I’ve run over your pleasantness with arrogance. I’ve betrayed your very trust and fucked the shit outta lust….just because. I’m weakened by my own actions. I’m facing the pain that comes with a negative reaction. I can’t feel my chest, but I believe that it is hollow. I never learned to swim through these tears, so now I’m drowning in sorrow. Without even saying it, I know there’s no future with you tomorrow. And I’m sorry for stealing your heart when I knew it should of been borrowed. Never take without asking, that no longer works in our generation. We spend countless years watching for love to get ready, endlessly waiting. God I loved you, but is there no hope for our hearts to beat in sync? I feel stupid right now begging for our love to one day to be a sure thing. I’ll stop, I can do it, I can be tough. The epitome of who I am relies on this, cause dammit I’m in love!
The real me goes on as if nothing ever occurred. My vision isn’t 20/20 so the memories may be blurred. I’ve grown so much from the time I ever felt the pain. I…crossed my heart and hoped to die, promising myself that I’ll promise to ALWAYS be me if I got the chance again. I promise to be a friend first and let the rest roll in. I promise to respect and care like I know how, regardless of the situation. I let myself go over the years, not knowing if I’d ever come back. But the childish approaches to life did not truly define who I was, so I’m through with all of that. A man of my nature deserves a second chance, cause I WILL make things right. You just gotta allow me to put up a fight. I strive for what I love, that’s who I know myself to be. Just give me a second chance to love like I know how, and finally be happy.